Currently Listening Halo 2, Vol. 2 see related

This one's for Tuck... and all my people's got sent up the river...

Ok Tuck, you asked for it.  Here's the update.  Oh wait, before that, get this soundtrack...

I'm doing an internship with SWAT but its going to be mainly paperwork.  However, the guys at the station look like something out of Delta Force movies... They got guns!  And I mean both types...  Other than that, Jen Silard trashed me in running a few miles (boy that was humbling) and I got to go to Fredrick to visit the Wilson crew up there with Wyz and friends.  I have not seen skies that beautiful in way too long.  I'm sorry I don't get on Xanga anymore but I am trying to "grow up" (=P to all you xanga people out there... get a real journal... or get paid... or something... nvm).  Good news is I'm actually working out and doing my devotions.

I bought this and its comming soon...

We are going airsofting again people... call me or email me or whatever we're just doing it!  And you might just survive if you learn Murphy's Laws of combat:

1. If the enemy is in range, so are you
2. Incoming fire has the right of way
3. Don't look conspicuous, it draws fire
4. There is always a way, and the easy way is always mined
5. Try to look unimportant, they may be low on ammo
6. Professionals are predictable, it's the rank amateurs that are dangerous
7. The enemy invariably attacks on two occasions:
   1. When you're ready for them
   2. When you're not ready for them
8. Teamwork is essential, it gives them someone else to shoot at
9. If you can't remember, then the claymore is pointed at you
10. The enemy diversion you have been ignoring will be the main attack
11. A "sucking chest wound" is nature's way of telling you to slow down
12. If your attack is going well, you have walked into an ambush
13. Never draw fire, it irritates everyone around you
14. Anything you do can get you shot, including nothing
15. Make it tough enough for the enemy to get in and you will not be able to get out
16. Never share a foxhole with anyone braver than yourself
17. When you have secured an area, don't forget to tell the enemy
18. If you're short of everything but the enemy, you are in the combat zone
19. Never forget that your weapon is made by the lowest bidder

Oh i like this picture...

-B

Currently Listening Meteora By Linkin Park see related

... No way... it's actually an entry!  Kinda.  This is just cause Josh Tucker kept bugging the heck out of me.  So my life is moving along right now.  My 21st Birthday will be this comming Monday so now I'll be responsible for all the drinking I do... which... oh nvm.  Anyway, I've wanted to make some changes to my life like with a new Job, starting my career, changing my service in the church and other crazy stuff, but after talking with Mike and others, I can see how I might have been looking for satisfaction in those things.  What I should really be focusing on is the basic things where I know God wants me to change.  Things like: Finishing getting my degree, doing devotions daily, working out with my brother, etc.  I do think God is calling me to CG leadership but I know I am so far away from being able to handle that kind of responsability... or maybe that's the point...

I've recently thought about how much my friendships mean to me.  I want to thank you you all for being willing to spend a part of your life with me and not shying away from encouraging/correcting me.  It doesn't matter if we were freinds at one point a long time ago and now I never even see you... I'm still grateful!  Thank you all for your prayers.  It's wierd, I can never picture anyone praying for me, but I can feel it everyday and when you tell me, "Oh how was such and such?  I was praying for you..." That means so much to me.

From the last Big Meeting me had, God has given me more confidence to fight my sin.  I'm still working on the Joy part.  Its interesting, things slowly seem to be falling out of my hands and beyond my control and I have noticed how important the habit of daily devotions has become.  I am struggling to wake up crying out to God for help for the day's problems and events.  Then I think about people like Ace, Mike, Wyz and others who have consistent devotions and how much they have grown.  If I could, I would return to the days when I was younger and made devotions more of a priority...

God has had so much mercy on my life.  There are so many times when I am tempted to exault myself and recall how righteous I am compared to those at my work, the image of the tax collector in the temple flashes in my mind.  Without looking up to heaven, he is beating his breasts and screaming out with everlasting desperation, "Have mercy on me a sinner!"  Lord have mercy on me!

Currently Listening Rooftops By Lostprophets see related

It has been so refreshing this past two weeks to be able to do little things to prepare myself for my future.  You guys have try this.  If you don't have a girlfriend, view your mom as one.  Like, I know that might sound wierd, and don't get your Dad's way or anything, but seriously, when's the last time you just wanted to "be around her".  What about spontaneously buying her coffee or keeping things clean or making the kitchen spotless when you come home from work late at night.  How about writing her a card, buying her flowers, giving her a big hug randomly, opening your heart to her, doing devotions with her, or find out neat things about her... you'd be suprised.  So I am trying to put a lot of this stuff into practice and it works!  If not your Mom, then how about your sister?  God has given me so much joy recently in serving my Mom.

Also, my Mom is so cool!  So she sends me these courtship things every so often to keep me motivated when things seem slow or hopeless.  It's wierd cause I can be tempted at times to think I don't need help in this issue even though I've never done anything like this before.  At other times, I get so nervous and anxious about making a mistake when I forget that I am the child of sovereign God who desires to bless me... So, thanks for caring for me Mom! 

And because I love to put pictures up here that make me look like a Geek, this is Soontir Fel... so don't ask just go to Wookiepedia.  He's cool

-B

AHHHH Okokokok... I don't have time to post anymore.  With planning my wedding, buying a house, and getting ready for pastors college I have no spare time.  I have figured it's time to grow up and set my life on serving my wife.  I can especially do this by cleaning up after myself at home and when I get back from work even though it's late at night.  Na has prepared my heart to serve her especially in this way.  So that's my delayed post... I'll leave you with this thought.

-B

Jessica was dissing me for not putting any pictures of "real people" up... Well sorry to break your frozen throne, but all the "real people" on google are ugly.  That and I don't have a camera, or even access to recent pictures.

In CG tonight, I learned so much about spiritual disciplines.  I had been having a problem doing my devotions and so I was asking questions about what motivates us to do them daily.  After asking around why others do devotions, Chris Edens asked me how I was viewing devotions as it related to Ephesians 6 and the armor of God.  It seems that in putting on my armor every morning that I was only grabbing my sword... hoping that at the least I was able to fight throughout the day.

I wish I had realized how easy, in a way, the rest of the armor was to put on.  Every morning it is not that difficult to preach the gospel to myself by donning the helmet of salvation.  The belt of truth was right there when I picked up my Bible ready to renew my mind and support me in my fights.  The breastplate of righteousness permenantly covered my chest since Christ had exchanged His righteousness for my sinfulness on the cross.  And furthermore, because of the cross, I had the boots of peace right there in my closet.

Everyday I was offered the shield of faith to trust God's promise of victory and extingish the lies that are hurled at me.  Man... I'm so stupid, it was all right there!

God, please help me to put on your armor every morning... I don't want to just survive my daily battles, I want to win them.  Thank you that I am not only a soldier in your army, but I am your child.  You have given me the equipment to be victorious, now give me the faithfulness to put it on as each day begins.

-B